“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”

screwed my chemistry all up, i think for section B open ended i all wrong alr, some ok but not confident. plus tht, i thought they always give periodic table as 1 paper, so i tore it out and left it under my script for easy reference,
after wanted to submit, saw behind the periodic table still got 1 whole page of questions, i died,
adding to that straight away after chem was ss.
i wanted to read through agn, but just wrote down what i can remember, hope its good,
chinese, some compre i tikam, and then open ended agn i wrote my answers on the wrong page............
bad day for me. seriously, plus i dont feel like going to 3r44 manxzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
went kfc with hady and jdran, then walking back met lyvia weisiang xueer, went mac with jdran weisiang lyvia plus xueer, ok bye.
if im not in the mood why am i still blogging -__-
i keep complaining about my attitude, i know my attidue sucks but then....................................... im doign nothing to hcange, zz
i hope i can really wake up. i'll be a totally different person.

"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain."

Slept @ 4amplus last night! coolios. LOL
ok

anyway Spasm is out on rebakah post, 11 August, check it out yo, one preview.



now its alr 12.30, still studying, was studying outside my house just now, fnished ss, now gg through chemistry.
anyway i got my phone back, and i think the software they install is diff from the last time one, cool
zaijian,
chow bella.
bye

"The biggest room in the world is the room for improvement."

cooolxz picture -.-
Summarise everything,.

woke up. saw rebekah's msg. ps.
didnt know im suppose to go airport,
so 12plus went airport pick my cous. then after tht went conerstone. i did it. -.- with the help of rebekah and kenneth -.-|| i was asking rebekah i come next week this week no time, i need to be home. but in the end kenneth just opened the door and we just went in like tht -_-
came back. then tmall to check out the mobile plans for my cous.
back to myh grandma's place, did physics there and then came back home.

goodbye,. thanks anyway, i'll obey, seize every opportunity i hope from now on.

"There is no such thing on earth as an uninteresting subject; the only thing that can exist is an uninterested person."

Today hello, im glad i did sit down, told myself to study.

celebration, i think yesterday's majulah sounded nicer? i dont know, nvm. i think the school is abit screwed up. the fiesta i dont think its fiesta can -.-|
anyways 2R1'S HAUNTED HOUSE IS THE BEST, and no matter how people try to copy, hello, we're still the best, we stayed back, almost evryone helped out., got the things, this and that, and won BEST INNOVATIVE CLASS :D i stilled remember a group of us went to jolene's housse to package the cookies, etc, print out the captions and pasting them onto the packaging. thats was cool.

now back to today, i feel so macho huh -.- i brought timpani to and fro from canteen to ncc room.
after the celebration, wanted to follow melissa hahahha but then, nvm, so me and justindran followed audrey junnie sinyee shumei and wanjing. go tmall eat., i mean cs. QIJI? quite nice i think.

but before that we were high in tmall. ITS SINGAPORE SINGAPORE SINGAPORE BIRTHDAYYYYYYY ITS HERE IN SINGAPORE!!! MUST HERE ME SING THEN FUNNY! and then we did like the one row S-IN-GAPORE S-IN-GAPORE singapore thingy haha
funfun.

67 went justin after tht and then walked home. came home and then started "studying" its 50-50 effort, but nvm, there's improvement.

"Once you embrace unpleasant news not as a negative but as evidence of a need for change, you aren't defeated by it. You're learning from it."

"No one is born hating another person because of the colour of his skin, or his background, or his religion. People must learn to hate, and if they can learn to hate, they can be taught to love, for love comes more naturally to the human heart than its opposite."

"Life is just one damned thing after another."

"Five frogs are sitting on a log. Four decide to jump off. How many are left?

There are still five - because there's a difference between deciding and doing."

"Five Frogs On A Log" by Mark L Feldman & Michael F Spratt

but in this case, all of you all decided and did it, nothing i say can change it ya.

i dont know what to say..
Sorry Ms Ong, sorry to everyone who thinks i have offended them in my jovial/joker persona. teased you, laughed at you, bullied you. the feeling is so @(#*)*#*@@& when you want to change but so little people is behind you. Ms Ong, just cheer up, forget about the past, its the future that matters!

i dont want to be band major anymore, its tough, looking back i thought it was easy peasy lemon squeezy but i was wrong, i never put myself in the position of others, and i doubt others ever put my position in their shoes, forget it, just pull through SYF and youre done,
no more commitments.

i think the band sounded quite nice, that made me breathe again, this band might survive afterall.

its human nature, who wouldnt think of teasing/making others feel miserable just for them to feel good? and enjoy themselves? who wouldnt?! I WOULD LIKE TO UNGUILTLY SAY I WOULDNT BUT THE FACT IS THIS, I WOULD.

I just want to fufil my duties and responsibilities in studies and band, this is my job, i was selected to do it, so i should perform my duties,
also to shenghan, it is true you are not a good leader yet, but since the teachers have elected you, do your job, only by doing what your job is will people respect you. :D Im not scolding you or what just telling you, because im over here trying to self-improve too.

ever since i cam back from shenyang, term 3, i have not been doing my work and putting in effort. all slipshot works, even i am digusted at myself, trust people to call me SC, im disgraceful.
sometimes in band i take my time to do things because i am the leader and i can do what i want, thats just so selfish of me,\

i was deceiving myself afterall, what i thought wouldnt happen happened. forget it. i should just move on and get on with life, we shouldnt be thinking of negative things all the time.

"Hold yourself responsible for a higher standard than anybody else expects of you. Never excuse yourself. Never pity yourself. Be a hard master to yourself - and be lenient to everybody else."
American clergyman Henry Ward Beecher (1813-1887)

but how hard i come down to myself everytime, no one cares, whenever im lenient im taken advantaged of? i just hope i can end my journey in life,
i've never felt so stressed out before.

forget it, go on and laugh at me hahahahahahha i also dont know what im writing, -.-
just feel so fucked up ok sorry no more vulgarities for me, i just feel so stressed and everything comes piling on my head and its like some timebomb, might explode anytime 0.-||

nvm goodbye/

"Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed people can change the world. Indeed it is the only thing that ever has."
Anthropologist Margaret Mead (1901-1978)

STRESSED OUT

BANDSCHOOLSTUDIESATTIDTUDEACTIONSEVERYTHING

Some people make the world special just by being in it.

TAN CHOW LIN! you good man wl eh, throw my phone, my call end call options and the webb one, basically the top part of my phone is not working only the 123456789 is working -.-

but hahha last time i clench his phone in my fist until the screen percha so even?
kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
STUDY, SELF-DISCIPLINED. must must
i am smelling the sound of smell lately, headache sia wl eh, even yingzhi and jiexin agrees, omg junwei. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i can smell him, he is right in front of me. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

alamak straight away can jump down and die.

i neeed study buddies, LOL -.-|| ok like study @ COFFEE BEAN?! STARBUCKS/MAC/ TCC/ anything, i just cant study at home lol.
ytd webcam aka very funny -.-
i saw aminahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and rebekah's mask -.-||

bye.

Best friends are the siblings God didn't give us.

i forgot to add benedict came down after his tuition or smth ytd to meet us at FOP!!
TODAY, practically watsed the whole of today sleeping :/ i REALLLLY couldnt hear!!
this time, its 27miss calls :/ sorry sorry rebekahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

byebyebyebey no more. :D
it is alr 8.15
im determined to go services and cell alr, plus more church events! :D
ok sheng understand???

Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.

i think marching was fun today, but hello we neeed to submit a marching video so by hook or crook we need the video out.
and we need to be more consistent in carrying out marching punishments and stuff.,
and ex-co(s), i believe we can do better!
actual fact if you zoom in i think the discipline is better in some ways. and im trying to make it strict but fun at the same time, you people try your best and i'll try my best! :D

anyway im back from the Festival of Praise! Excellent,met up with tina stayxi and brandon, it made me question my relationship with god, how distanced i am to him, whywhywhy? because all these while i've been trying to avoid him, but why? if its not for me waking up late and all. why cant i make me go for services? discipline and i have to take control of my life.
he actually saved our lives, so why do i feel so ashamed to mention him? personally thanks to tayxi! :D for asking me to go and then after that talking to me about the flesh and blood, i will and must overcome it! :D
apart from the performances by parachute band and hillsong united. i've made some "friends" maybe i'll see them again maybe i'm not, but im sure im seeing them again.
jerald? jonathan, eunice, godiva? i think so! hahahhahaha
i connect with them quite well huh =.=|| ok anyway hope to see them again. :D
i think we mrt-ed back at arnd 12am? or smth? ok den stopped at tanahmerah bussed home.
rebekah no more 16miss call tmr! :D zaijian.2am now lehhhhhhhhh ;/ im only so awake on saturday night.

 

 

 

 

happy birthday shimei! we smashed ice-cream on her instead of the usual cakes. hahah more fun actually :/
omg sorry ok, im the mastermind behind every great move. lollllllllllllll
anyway today was fun in a way i like to take them marching hehhehehehehe so fun, hahah -.-|||

ok combine was worse because[,,,,,,,,,,,] nvm.

i think i will be going to Festival of Praise later! :O

If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?

 

 

national museum today, there are more people, like petrina rachel, samuel jessie, naomi but they're all camera shy,
so anyway lessons were ok, sat with wh cause juline and sinyee never come, den yeah stayed back help angela and wanjing paste the ne thing.
den me eric and sheng rushed down to board the bus because its not a 19 seater bus!!! 40 seater, ms jamie tan bluff me, lucky we called pamela/petrina if not we couldnt go. i hope all of us would be able to go japan! :D so cool.
but on the other im scared becausei went to shenyang exchange not long ago.

anyway band was short. museum took most of the time, sorry.
went for band and then mr yeo talked to the ex-co.

tommorrow is my greatest friend/daughter's birthday! :D
ok me and her are of abt the same levels because we used to have the same overall score like p5 and p6? isit?> hahhahah :D
okokokok i shall not say happy birthday yet, goodbye!