after today i finally got assured that im emotionally attached in the band. hearing the band play, emotions started gushing down and it sucks, but thats when i knew i dont hate band anyway.

and its so weird to see guys cry? yes no? whatever, i decided to appproach mryeo because i was feeling stress and that unconstructive comment made me feel real low.
if you think playing a freaking oboe is easy, think again. furthermore struggling with no tutors, they cant be bothered because its ex to get an oboe tutor, no seniors and the oboes always being left out. and one more freaking thing we have to buy our own reeeds thats cost $30 each. we'll always buy at least 4. watch that.

im not weighing my own burden too. i still have to worry about the bassooon. and for your info he only has one reed and everytime he breaks it i have to make my way to IMM jurong east because swee lee and yahama doesnt sell anymore. his reed. 35 dollars.
so can you freaking see how much money and energy im using in the band?
if you people really dont know i've alr spent a few hundreds on my reed since sec 1 and now the bassoon.

like our QM stuffs are not even here yet? even braytons ligiture which he needs asap.
wtf is this? i dont mind buying my own reed plus bassoon's but can you at least show that you're doing your best trying to get the things asap too?

plus being bandmajor? its freakingalot. not mentioning sc commitments in class and studies.

i dont know hwo to explain, NBC is just a freaking 3-4days away and no one seems motivated.
thats the problem, thats the issue, how the hell is the band major suppose to change that?

and damn the band major is always the emotional one. damndamndamn.

what i really like to say is mdm julinda, i really appreciate her and really sorry for making comments tht she dont care and all. she stayed in for our practice whereas ms ong just came in and less than 5mins? out.

and when she knew what happen she smsed me
" liang rong. it's gd 2 b aware of oneself so dat we can constantly improve. if u believe it, u'll c it. i always believe in u guyz.. so plz dont b so down.plz.smile" and so on.

whatver, adding to tht whenever i try to talk to particular person always kena shoot back..
downdowndown.

thanks to "family" who tried making me laugh which i did and cheer up but no, maybe i will after a few hours. thanks anyway!

going to practise my oboe, oboe oboe. i;ll make it sound freaking good. but first reading up about your instrument on the net might be useful.

IM FREAKING MOTIVATED. WATCH MY BACK.